Well its been 13 weeks since you passed and it does,nt get easier. I have your picture on my mantlepiece and I light a candle and it makes me feel safe knowing you are looking down on us, especially mum she is doing so well I know you are proud. The hardest thing I find is the fact time still goes on its mad, can you believe christmas is almost upon us and it will be hard, being that it will be first week without you, I have found it hard to come on here the last few weeks I was trying to bury my head in the sand, as with me living so far away it was easier to think you were still tucked up in a bed in Elgin, mum waiting on you hand and foot. Well life does go on and with it so does your memory cause I will keep it alive, mum and I have lovely conversations about you sometimes good and somtimes bad haha only joking anyway I love you and you are deep in my heart.